if you and a fellow jehovah's witness went to a house where the homeowner brought up a watchtower doctrine which you secretly disagree with, would you defend it or tell them what it is you really believe?.
either way you are at a loss.. defending something you disagree with is living a lie and telling a lie.
not defending it and telling the home owner what you really believe makes you an apostate by watchtower society standards.
"....Although [Joseph] Rutherford served for 25 years as president of the Watch Tower Society and devoted all his energy to advancing the work of the organization, he was not the leader of Jehovah’s Witnesses, and he did not want to be."
This quote is a little gem!
as of yet, no member of the jehovah's witness faith can defend their unique beliefs.
when the dust settles, it all comes down to blind faith in men's ever-changing ideas.
this "unique belief" was not a "true teaching of the bible.
DOT!
"I was trying to get the viewpoint of an experienced fellow Witness, how can that quote from 1945 mean anything but to worship Jesus? It says we should 'worship Jehovah and also bow down and worship Jesus', in the same context.
And how could we state it as fact that children WOULD NOT grow old or finish school. An answer to either/both of these points would be helpful,"
Most active JW's don't have an idea of how much the WT dogma has changed during the years. Don't blame yourself for not knowing about the old teachings. You may ask for older litterature at your KH library, but I am sure that tghe elders wil try their best to keep you from reading it.
That quote from Awake was published during the 1975 hype. If you are a young person you probably dont know the real truth about 1975. It was so embarrasing for most people in the organisation that they are not happy to tell younger JW's about it. But maybe you have heared som inside stories about 1975. Try to ask elderly peoble in the congegration........some of them may tell a little.
i believe it is mostly guilt.
many witnesses pioneer or "reach out" in the religion because they feel guilty.. they may feel they aren't doing enough.
they may have secretly "sinned" against rules imposed by the organization.
I don't know if the quasi-psychological term "armageddon axiety" is used internationally, but I think the fear of being killed is one of the moste importnt factors keeping people from thinking and questioning. Also, I think tht the "what if"-reasoning is related to the "armageddon anxiety". Probably the "armageddon axiety" may persist for a long time in quite a lot of XJWs. I am thinking about reactions to disasters or to that UN-Vatican report on sexual abuse.
i have read today this quote from one member on facebook going by the name of ruth eeker.. .
based on her quote, she states that "as well in regards to the un, the society has various name versions registered still in the un.
so they are still not completely out of the supposed beast!".
if i were the all-powerful creator of all the universe it would be a very easy thing to prove my existence, requirements and will in an indisputable and unambiguous way.
everyone would know of my existence and requirements without them having to put forth effort to believe based on limited, ambiguous evidence that is highly subject to interpretation.
i would regard faith as a harmful trait that makes one vulnerable to being deceived.
Just one question. Why should an omnipotent omniscient creator want worshippers? Succh great being would probably not be narcissistic! 
Believe is one thing, worship is someting different.
conditions needed for a person to leave a high control group: [source].
1. courage.
a person must be very brave to leave a high control group.
It was the same thing for me......but this was long berore the internet. I think things might be a bit eaiser nowdays. At least I hope it is.
jwn has been great for me.
i think i have deprogrammed pretty quick so far compared to many with all their loved ones in.
i am enjoying meeting up with posters off the board and fbing some too.
LOL. I see...you have been generous with posting a lot of yourself here, including photos. I can imagine you get some unwanted PMs....
In fact I think I got my first PM here after some 5-6 months, and I'm OK with that! In fact I got it from Britain!
Since english is not my native language I probably express myself like a child or like an "idiot" sometimes! But I have to live with that! 
conditions needed for a person to leave a high control group: [source].
1. courage.
a person must be very brave to leave a high control group.
I think Cyrus is in to something important....a negative experience that reduces the defences/the cognitive dissonance. Leaving a culd is not just about critical thinking.
jwn has been great for me.
i think i have deprogrammed pretty quick so far compared to many with all their loved ones in.
i am enjoying meeting up with posters off the board and fbing some too.
I understand Kate...she is quite a new member here. Maybe she feels more safe with the regular posters.....perheaps almost a bit familjiar.
conditions needed for a person to leave a high control group: [source].
1. courage.
a person must be very brave to leave a high control group.